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dream

Its been long time since i wrote anything here.

life didnt allow me to write thats the write explanations. nothing much happened to me other than another birthday passed.. yeah, i am 33 now. 33 doesnt mean much to me.. am still the same crazy old fellow. nothing much changed in me. is still have this un controlleble urge to travel, take photographs. and am doing it. for quiet some time . you can see my pictures here ( http://silentyogi.com )

my crazy mind is still crazy. am still alone..

i desperatly needed some friendship, i needed some one to share my feelings, My dreams. i wanted to show my pictures, i wanted to see this world with that person. but then no one is there. i am happy to be alone. but at times i need company. i need a person to hold on to.

some one asked me.

its been long time since i wrote anything here, am going through this some kind of weird time period of my life it seems.. i can concentrate on anything.. mind is just wandering here and there. cant think of better days. is it another attack of depression. or It can be my medicines . i have heard that atenolol can infuse

• dry mouth
• dizziness or faintness (
• cold extremities
• hair loss
• problems with sexual function
• runny/blocked nose
• depression and confusion
• difficulty sleeping, nightmares
• fatigue, weakness or lack of energy

i dont have any of the other problems other than the depression and confusion, but then i was confused even before i started taking that drug.. :-)

anyway the point is i e this some kind of dipression patterns once in a while. i tend to be enjoying loneliness, talk to myself, dream about a lot of painful incidents, like y day i had this strange dream of a baby who was killed and wrapped up in a nice white cotton cloth and was ditched on a sidewalk .. i just walked towards and and looked at the babies dead body . the baby was all filthy looking with its eyes closed and there was no movement in it.. i was so sacred and wanted to cry loud but the baby just opened its eyes and stared staring at me... like as if i am some kind of an enemy and its going to take some revenge on me...

it was really a strange dream... i opened my eyes and was still on the bed breathing heavily.. i dont know what this means.. but i was really scared...

me

ponnu

“Who were/are the most important people in your life (other than Amma)? Why?”

my Sister, my Niece, Sudeep ji, my parents..

my sister is my best friend, my niece is a cute lil girl who brings lot of joy to my life, Sudeep ji is like my elder brother who supports me and helps me in difficult times.. and i love my parents a lot …. and my greatest luck is all of them including me are supported by our AMMA

there are many more in the list. but i dont think its relevent here.

ponnu

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