some one asked me.

its been long time since i wrote anything here, am going through this some kind of weird time period of my life it seems.. i can concentrate on anything.. mind is just wandering here and there. cant think of better days. is it another attack of depression. or It can be my medicines . i have heard that atenolol can infuse

• dry mouth
• dizziness or faintness (
• cold extremities
• hair loss
• problems with sexual function
• runny/blocked nose
• depression and confusion
• difficulty sleeping, nightmares
• fatigue, weakness or lack of energy

i dont have any of the other problems other than the depression and confusion, but then i was confused even before i started taking that drug.. :-)

anyway the point is i e this some kind of dipression patterns once in a while. i tend to be enjoying loneliness, talk to myself, dream about a lot of painful incidents, like y day i had this strange dream of a baby who was killed and wrapped up in a nice white cotton cloth and was ditched on a sidewalk .. i just walked towards and and looked at the babies dead body . the baby was all filthy looking with its eyes closed and there was no movement in it.. i was so sacred and wanted to cry loud but the baby just opened its eyes and stared staring at me... like as if i am some kind of an enemy and its going to take some revenge on me...

it was really a strange dream... i opened my eyes and was still on the bed breathing heavily.. i dont know what this means.. but i was really scared...